Jamie asked - what do you want guidance for http://jamieridlerstudios.ca/wishcasting-wednesday-what-guidance-do-you-wish-for in her blog today.
I have so many things.
This week, I suffered a concussion. I know it's serious. I am still in intense pain four days later. I am forgetful. I have problems with vision. I am moody and emotional. I am tired.
I dreamed I was a boxer last night. And like every boxing movie (my husband loves them) there was that point where the doctor says - no more fighting. If you get hit in the head one more time, you will die. And of course - just like the movies, I had to fight just one more time to get enough money to save the world. And I died. A horrible and painful death, I went through that tunnel of light and went to the other side with the knowledge I had disappointed the entire world.
But then my husband took the money I won - because I won the fight right before i died - and he made a time machine. I was almost done with this before I died. Of course - a mad scientist/boxer. Don't they go hand in hand? My husband is not a scientist, I have always longed to be a mad scientist myself. So he traveled through time and rescued me. Long before I started boxing. (I only did it for the money, of course. Why else would anyone box?) I was younger, more beautiful, stronger, and together we used the time machine to save the world.
So what is this telling me? That I should stop boxing? too obvious. that I should save the world? Hmmm, that sounds like fun. Maybe it's telling me to push myself beyond death? I wish! I have always been a workaholic and would love the universe to tell me to push harder! Or maybe I am supposed to trust my husband to take over and rest so we can save the world together?
I am working three part time jobs and studying leadership and organizational management, two years into my doctorate studies. What I REALLY want guidance on is my dissertation topic. I have gone back and forth on this. I have gone from empowering women, to empowering women in the workplace, to studying that creative process that women go through when they are about to give birth to a new creative venture. I am trying to understand it and define it and get the kind of narrow topic idea that makes for a great study.
I also want guidance on how to let go and learn to lean on my husband, so I don't die in the process of working too hard saving the universe.