Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Wishcasting - guidance

Jamie asked - what do you want guidance for in her blog today.
I have so many things.
This week, I suffered a concussion. I know it's serious. I am still in intense pain four days later. I am forgetful. I have problems with vision. I am moody and emotional. I am tired.
I dreamed I was a boxer last night. And like every boxing movie (my husband loves them) there was that point where the doctor says - no more fighting. If you get hit in the head one more time, you will die. And of course - just like the movies, I had to fight just one more time to get enough money to save the world. And I died. A horrible and painful death, I went through that tunnel of light and went to the other side with the knowledge I had disappointed the entire world.
But then my husband took the money I won - because I won the fight right before i died - and he made a time machine. I was almost done with this before I died. Of course - a mad scientist/boxer. Don't they go hand in hand? My husband is not a scientist, I have always longed to be a mad scientist myself. So he traveled through time and rescued me. Long before I started boxing. (I only did it for the money, of course. Why else would anyone box?) I was younger, more beautiful, stronger, and together we used the time machine to save the world.
So what is this telling me? That I should stop boxing? too obvious. that I should save the world? Hmmm, that sounds like fun. Maybe it's telling me to push myself beyond death? I wish! I have always been a workaholic and would love the universe to tell me to push harder! Or maybe I am supposed to trust my husband to take over and rest so we can save the world together?
I am working three part time jobs and studying leadership and organizational management, two years into my doctorate studies. What I REALLY want guidance on is my dissertation topic. I have gone back and forth on this. I have gone from empowering women, to empowering women in the workplace, to studying that creative process that women go through when they are about to give birth to a new creative venture. I am trying to understand it and define it and get the kind of narrow topic idea that makes for a great study.
I also want guidance on how to let go and learn to lean on my husband, so I don't die in the process of working too hard saving the universe.


  1. that dream is very telling and is actually guiding you. slow down. hmmm - maybe you can go study what it is that makes women want to go and save the world? i wonder if it's an extension of the natural urge to nurture life? :-) as you wish for yourself, i wish for you too!

  2. Sharlene,
    That is profound. Thank you! Yes, maybe that's what it was telling me!

  3. As you wish so I wish for you as well!

  4. As you wish for yourself, i wish for you as well! :]

  5. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also.

  6. As you wish for ourself, I wish for you also!

  7. AS you wish for yourself, I wish for yourself also!

  8. Saving the world, huh? :) With a concussion?? Yikes, woman! I say before you go out there to play Superwoman, HEAL YOURSELF first!!

    Actually, I think there is much symbolism in your concussion. The "head" commands the body. It's the place where the Third Eye resides - for seeing the Truth behind the Illusions. It's also where the intellect resides, as well as your eyes or "VISION".

    I don't know how you got your injury, but I wonder: What wall are you (metaphorically) beating your head against right now??? Where are you feeling you can't get "aHEAD"? And...interestingly enough (in Christian circles) the husband is the "Head" of the wife - are you trying to MAKE yourself lose 'your' head, so that your husband will become yours for you? Trying to knock some "SENSE" into yourself???

    Just some thoughts off the top of MY head! LOL
    As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also!

  9. Wow, what a dream! But at least you know you don't have to save the world all alone now. You can get your husband to help! :)

    As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you as well.

  10. Wow. That was some dream!
    Regarding your dissertation topic, I like the idea of studying the creative process of women. I think there may already be a lot out there about "empowerment in the workplace" etc., but female creativity might be an area where you could really shed some light. Good luck, whatever topic you choose.

    As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

  11. What a great dream and wish thanks for telling us about it. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

  12. Wowzers ~ you're a busy girl, dreaming and awake! Take good care ... as you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.
    ~ Jane

  13. What a dream! Thanks for sharing it. I hope you find whatever guidance you are looking for where your dissertation topic is concerned. As you wish for yourself, so do I lovingly wish for you also.

  14. Jeez! I'm exhausted just reading about all you do! Take care of yourself! As you wish for your self, so I wish for you also.

  15. You know what? I think Im always in the boxing ring fighting for something , I want to be ,or do LOL! I can totally relate to that big time!
    Hang in there , besides your a very strong woman, I can actually learn alot from you , because your doing so many things to accomplish your dreams , you inspire me : )

    As you wish for yourself , I wish for you also.

  16. Thank you so much!
    Yes, women do need to fight for everything they accomplish! That's why I think this dissertation topic is the right one for me. I know so many creative women who fight so hard to give birth to their creativity. I think the fact that we are designed to give birth and go through unspeakable pain to bring life into the world should help us in this creative process. But we need to band together and draw strength from each other!