Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I wish I could take a break!

I want a break from pain today.
I want a break from depression.
I want a break from feeling weak.
I want a break from cleaning.
I want a break from feeling like I have to do EVERYTHING!
I want a break from stress and worry.

I really wish I could take a break from being ME today. I know that's not possible, but I wish I could.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Looking at my wishes...
I have always been concerned with wishing for world peace, finding ways to empower women in the workplace, I want to help battered women and homeless people. But looking at how I am going to accomplish this, I've come to the conclusion that first I have to fulfill my own wishes for me. However selfish that may sound, I am looking closely today at what I really want for myself.
1. Develop strong boundaries. I have always had trouble with this. When I was a kid, my kindergarten teacher told me I didn't know how to say no. I went home, mortified, worried that I was pronouncing it wrong. I practiced for hours alone in my room. For years, every teacher told me the same thing, and I agonized over how to say the world properly. It wasn't until I was in my 20s that I realized they meant I needed to set better boundaries, it had nothing to do with pronunciation.
2. Work on developing strong friendships. I have a few very close friends and I rarely get together with them. I want to socialize more with my friends, get to know them better, share with them.
3. I want to complete my doctorate. It's been a lot of work, but I'm two years into it and I'm not stopping now.
4. I want to sit for my CPA exam. No more excuses, I am going to do it.
5. I want a full time teaching position. Since I was laid off August of 2009, I have worked part time teaching, part time selling, part time consultant, lots of part time jobs with no benefits. If only the Minnesota legislature would get their act together and create a proper budget that supports education!!!
6. Learn to balance work and play. This will be essential as I teach exclusively online this fall. I need to learn when to stop.
7. Take better care of myself physically and spiritually.