Wednesday, August 24, 2011

What do I wish to Enjoy?

Jamie inspired me again with her blog at - what do you wish to enjoy?

I wish to enjoy my body - I have a tendency to overlook the migraine, the fibromyalgia, the hip pain, the fat, the whole aging process, I like to overlook them and dissociate from them to the point where I completely ignore and discount my body. I ignore her cries for help. I eat unhealthy things to block out the pain. I push myself and go without sleep until she can't take anymore and she rebels with complete lack of activity.
  • I want to make friends with her.
  • I want to take care of her.
  • I want to learn to pamper her.
  • I want to see her as beautiful, worthy of care and attention.
  • I want to learn love for her.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Wishcasting Wednesday... a day late again!

What do you choose to wish for yourself asks Jamie in her amazing blog.
Today I wish for myself that I continue to be me and live my life.
  • I choose to be me
  • I choose to continue to explore my passions and follow them
  • I choose to find out more about my strengths and develop them
  • I choose to continue working on my doctorate no matter how much work it is
  • I choose to support my friend Charlotte in her new house-cleaning business and treat myself to domestic help for the first time in my life. I am so excited!
  • I choose to trust Charlotte to help me organize my house - not my strength, but it is hers.
  • I choose to support other people develop their strengths and passions.
  • I choose to be the best teacher I can possibly be.
  • I choose to continue loving and supporting the most amazing husband ever. (he's my third, and my last, and the BEST!!!)
I had an amazing meeting yesterday with my bosses at Monarch about my strengths and how I can use them at Monarch. I took a test, the Strengthfinders test, and my strengths are
  1. Ideation
  2. Adaptibility
  3. Input
  4. Empathy
  5. Intellection
They told me that three of these are strategic strengths and two are relationship strengths. I had never really thought of myself as strategic because I've never had the luxury of long term planning, but strategy can also be your ability to put the pieces together in the moment and come up with a solution. My forte. With Input, I can gather information about people around me. (My detective background) with my empathy, I can read into what they say. With my intellection I can use my brain and think about the situation, then my ideation comes up with a solution. Wow. When I look at this this way, they are a GREAT combination for my life.
I choose to be me. I choose to follow my own strengths and passions and make the world a beautiful place!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

What door do you wish to open?

I had a dream two nights in a row, where someone told me, "she does her own work" about my rival. I have never been a very competitive person, so I have been doing a lot of thinking about who this rival is. In my dreams, she has been a couple of different people. I am wondering it this rival is my essential self, the part of me that is truly creative and doesn't have to get ideas from others? Someone truly confident and self-assured enough to do her own work? find her own creativity? march to her own music?
So, the door I want to open is my door. The door with me on the other side. The door that shows my true self, creatively following her passion and doing her own work. I want to unlock it and let her come into my life and take over.

Jamie asked "What door do you wish to open.", and this inspired my blog today.